Battle of Love
We went out together at night, but it was not like in the former times - although she drank alcohol and there were also some really funny moments...
Although it was the perfect situation, there was no special body contact ... on contrary, she actually was afraid of our reputation...
- whatever we really had a lot of fun!

But there was also a moment, I was really shocked and irritated, but honestly not by her, but by him...
We talked about his ex boyfriend and that he has told him that he's still loving him and I asked him whats about his own feelings. But he just turned into her direction and whispered "that's the only thing I really want...But pssst!!!". He doesn't want her to know that but honestly, I don't know if I really wanted to know that either!Coz actually, to know his feelings for her, makes me really, really jealous in some way! Coz I am the one, who needs her more than anything else in life and I really want to keep it that way! I don't want him to feel for her the way I do! I don't want him to love her!

I'm not only jealous, it even hurts, coz I'm afraid that she might think some day, that his love might have more "power" than my one.