I haven't received an email yet ... It's kind of saddening when you check your emails excitedly and you just hope to get one of him. But then you realize that there's none again. And you start considering stopping with everything.

I consider that again, just stop with that shit and try anything different. Try anything that isn't as hopeless as this story.

To ask him what he thinks or to invite him for a coffee or stuff can just be embarassing and that's all because of his age ... Maybe he has a girlfriend or he wouldn't like such a young girl. But however, he also can think that he would be too old for me and thus doesn't react the way I want it to be ...

And the big question is: WHAT SHALL I DO?