you don't know what you are doing
Only be serious about jokes; about everything else, from the very beginning, beware, don't get serious. All the sutras have to be forgotten. And you have to forgive all the sutras. Just remember jokes, but take them very seriously. They will help you immensely.
A drunk sat alone at one end of the bar watching the well-dressed playboy smoothly talking to one woman after another. Finally he slithered over to the man: "Hey, mister, how come you get to talk to all these women?"
"Well," said the man, "I have a special technique I figured out. It works every time. Look!"
They waited for a buxom redhead to walk by.
"Tickle your ass with a feather?" whispered the playboy.
The woman wheeled around, "What! What did you say to me?" she stormed.
"Particularly nice weather," said the man coolly "Won't you join us for a drink?" The woman sat down and before she left the man had her phone number and a date.
Then a pretty brunette came along. Again the man said, "Tickle your ass with a feather?"
"I beg your pardon!" exclaimed the lady.
"Particularly nice weather!" cooed the man.
Charmed, the lady joined them for a while. When she left, Mr. Suave-and-Debonair said, "So you see how it works now?"
"Yeah, I get it," slobbered the drunk.
"Now you try it on the next broad," said the playboy.
So when a gorgeous blonde walked in, the drunk gathered up his courage and yelled, "Hey, lady, stick a feather up your ass?"
"What!" she raged. "What did you say?"
"Pretty fuckin' nice out, isn’t it?" replied the drunk.
You are absolutely in a drunken state. Everything is upside down in you, everything is in a mess. You don't know what you are doing, why you are doing it. You don't know why you are here in the first place! You are fast asleep.
Just take one thing seriously and that is to become more and more alert of your sleepiness.