if there is anything i could do
he looks at me with this boyish frustrated face expression
"like the day you left, i closed the gbh and came back for you and everybody just went nuts on me"
god i haven't felt that bad in ages. that was so freaking cute.


we went to the back beach last night. went back, arms around each other, giggeling about dirty jokes.. wasn't even drunk.

tried to let him sleep and stay on the otherside of the bed. didn't want to wake him up, he seemed tired all day, but he pulled me back, every time. didn't stop him from complaining today though

went to town together to get stuff for tonight. spent hours talking about crap. then he decided that he wanted to take me to his friends cafe for lunch. once we entered the cafe he became all quite, almost nervous, asked a million times if i liked the place and everything, could hardly look at me, blushed when he tried. never seen him like that. way too cute.

i hate fighting but its the only time when i actually have a chance to find out what he really thinks. i tried to be not too nice so that he doesn't think he can play his games forever. i guess is was too bitchy.

mel:"he is basicly trying to tell you that he loves you"