Taboo
I just decided, to forget about it, although I’m still really disappointed because of yesterday! Coz today, I forced myself, not to be the one who’s writing her a message just in order to hear that she’s alright… coz I really wanted her to ask ME…!
But I really had to wait hours and hours, and it was really hard to make it… but than, in the afternoon, she really wrote me and asked if I’d like to visit “Street Style” with her… but, that’s it…! She didn’t ask me, if I’m alright, and what’s about my parents, so…!

I really decided not to talk to her about it anymore, not at all! Coz I really think, that she wouldn’t help me, coz obviously she’s really not there for me…! To know that, really hurts a lot, but, whatever, I can’t change it anyway…!
And I really don’t expect it, but if she’ll ever complain about it, and if she ever wants me to talk to her again … - I’ll just answer that SHE was the one, who told me, that she’s really not the right person to talk to…!
- well, honestly, I know that I’ll never say something like that anyway…, but it feels good to pretened it to myself right now…!

But seriously, I’ll never try again to tell her my problems, although I would really need her right now…, but she’s the most important person in my life and I really don’t want to make her mad! And it really seemed like it made her mad, that this would be like a change of roles…!
Obviously she doesn’t want me to have problems like her…, not because she’s feeling sorry for me, but because… I don’t know, it seems like, that I don’t have the right to have any problems and to be sad… coz that’s obviously just her part…!

So, I have to handle my problems by my own…! And I’ll really try to!! Coz I love her, and nothing else should matter in our friendship!!