Shit happens...
I had a terrible night… I really didn’t sleep very well… there were dreams about her and about car accidents of any kind… - I really worried about her all the time…, honestly I even really felt kinda … sick…!
But than, at about noon … she called me… and surprisingly she was in such a high mood… that I really had to think about the night before and if it was just a dream at all..!! . She called me in order to aks me to go shopping with her… “Honey what are you gonna do…?! I’d love you to go shopping with me coz I have to buy some things for tonight’s show…!! So, I’m gonna pick you up in about 5 min…?!” - and so she did…!!
We went downtown and bought the last things for the show and than she asked me to come with her in order to help with the last preparations… - and of course I went with her..! It was great to spend the time with her there.. And it was just great, that she really WANTED me to be there..!!
But, of course, we also talked about the “lighted” thing… - for me it was quite a surprise that she really was kinda … relaxed… respectively she prented to be…!! It seemed likes he had completely believed in what I had worte to her the night before…
I was just glad not to see her crying again.. And I also told her, that I didn’t see or hear her cry for such a long time.. “ ‘But I don’t want to talk about it… I’ve really got to sleep now…!’ - that’s such a typical sentence … that’s what you were always telling me, but the last time really seems like times and times ago…! But, honestly, whenever there was a problem with J… or even with W… and I’ve been calling you coz of it, that’s what you were telling me, although that it was pretty obvious that you wouldn’t sleep anyway…”!
Well, whatever, she got lighted and she hast to pay a ticket but I don’t think that she’s really gonna lose her driver’s license…! - I really hope so..:!
But, anyway, the most important thing is, that she’s not really desperate and sad coz of it.. - and obviously she’s actually not sad, not at all, coz we really had a lot of fun together…!!