Schizophrenic Part II
15.03.2004

Alright, honestly it seems like things are completely getting out of control now.
It is really strange, when people - actually, some of my family - ask me, if there’s something new to tell about me and her, and if everything is alright with us …! It’s like they’d ask me, what’s about … - my boyfriend! It’s crazy, isn’t it?!
Actually it’s embarrassing in some way, and sometimes I really feel ashamed of it. But than, I realize, that no one knows about it, and that they just know, that she’s my best friend. Just a normal “best-friend-friendship”. I don’t have to be afraid of it.
Whatever, it’s so strange, because on the other hand, I think that all of them know how much I love her, and that it’s not a normal best-friend-friendship at all. And I also want them to know that, in some way. Honestly, I think I just want them to know it, but not to talk about it.