No.1 for a day
10.05.2004:

Now I know what it feels like to be her “No.1” - at least for one day.
It was just great. The fears and strange feelings have gone and everything is alright again - I love her like since the first moment!

She was …, I don’t know how to say, it was just perfect. She was there for me! Just there for me, in every minute, in every single second. She actually really cared.

Even the night before, she was so nervous and so excited because of my A-levels - even more than myself. And she was so cute. She gave me so many sweet things and so much stuff, just to wish me good luck.

Honestly, I was just forced to see her again in the morning, and to hug her again. So I wrote her during her lesson, and asked her to leave the class and “to go to the toilette”…! She hugged me and promised me that I will make it and that she will think of me in every single second and that she will cross all her fingers…

She was the first person I saw after writing my test. She was waiting in front of the classroom and she … was just smiling. She ran over to me, she hugged me and kissed me and she was so happy …! She gave me so much power, faith and strength. Without her, I really wouldn’t have made it!

I don’t need her to be happy - I need her to stay alive!!