Dismissed
20.05.2004:

Sometimes I’m really shocked because of some things she’s saying or she’s believing in, and some of them just hurt me.
Sometimes I can’t imagine that she’s actually so superficial and so spoiled.
Sometimes it’s hard to believe that this is her cloven hoof.
Sometimes I understand that other people can’t see why I love her so much.

“I thought about it all the time today, I really have to search for new friends. Because my old ones don’t have enough money! … Actually I have to renounce of so many thing, just because they are not able to afford it!… I really hate that! … You know, I just want to go for holidays, to relax, to party and to have fun with them. …I really need that! I can’t live without that! …I can’t believe it, I haven’t been for holidays for a whole damn year now! …Just remember the former times, when Julie and the other called me and said >>Hey we’re going to Spain next weekAlright! Let’s go!