So what...?
Imagination is running wild
I'm going crazy
My feelings switch every five seconds
I'm scared of losing you
I can't fight against your decisions
Even if they make no sense for me
I don't have to understand it
I just have to accept it
I can't
I'm lost, and I'm scared

"It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
If you made up your mind you wanna go
I'm not begging you to stay"

But it's not about what we did
I admit I miss the feeling of your lips
But it's about feeling save
Don't you understand that I'm feeling insecure
I'm lost because I can never be sure if your behavior keeps being the same
You tell me to keep in touch
And then I don't hear from you at all
You tell me you don't want me
"You're not getting anything out of it"
Then you ask me why I didn't come to visit and hang out
Don't you see that we keep running in circles?
Since the day we met, we keep telling ourselves that it's no use
We keep hurting each other
Instead of trying to see what could happen if we open up
Instead of saying YES for once
You know as well as I do that there is a chance
How long will it take this time till we stay in front of each other and try to turn back the hands of time
We keep saying "It can't, because..."
You know it can, we almost found it, for one week it worked out
it's over because we both were scared to talk about what happend.
Don't try to leave me with the blame.
I admit I stopped talking the way I did when I first came back.
I admit I didn't told you what I was feeling
But you didn't told me what you wanted
You didn't even say no
You just left me standing there alone with my fears
I just got scared. I didn't know what you expected me to do
Didn't know if it was just "an one night kiss"
I'm sorry I dissappointed you, but it's not only my fault
You keep telling me to talk about it.
Why are you asking me to do something you can't even do yourself?
Everytime you just leave, saying "see you next time"
Well tell me, what am I supposed to think about that, what am I supposed to do.
I really wish I could do it right
But this is all new for me, and maybe I just need a little help
Maybe I need you to tell me what's right
Maybe I need you to tell me that you're there for me
Maybe I need you to show me what you want, when I can't read your mind

What if we like it?