Relapse - but a good one
I was just sooo glad, that I was not that strong… and that I, whatever, made the first step - again - …! I visited her at work… and although, it was nothing special, and we didn’t talk a lot… I was just so glad to see her and to be next to her!! Just to see her gives me so much … she’s just so beautifult… sometimes I really can’t take my eyes off her…!
We didn’t talk a lot and it was even kinda …superficial… actually, there was just nothing we could have talked about…but, whatever,…it seemed like both of us thought the same… - it was just so great to spend some time together…!

Oh my god, I love her so much and it almost kills me that can’t tell anybody the truth…! Even… or first of all, not her…!