Happy Birthday
20.03.2004

What the hell is going on?! She was really pissed off, just because I told her, that I just don’t want to be in contact with … anymore! She can’t imagine why, because it’s her problem and it shouldn’t belong to me, because I’ve never had a problem with … in former times.

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Alright, now I really see her problem. It was just because of my birthday present. She decided to try to bring back the old Disneyland dream team, by planning a new trip to another theme park. Now I feel really sorry, that I told her just a few hours ago, that I don’t want any contact to … anymore. Although it’s actually the truth.
But on the other side, I always knew, that she will forgive her very, very soon; and I also knew, that I would accept it. Of course I don’t care of the things which happened if she also doesn’t do it. But whatever, I’ll never forget and I’ll never forgive her.

I don’t know if I’m really looking forward to it, and honestly I don’t know what I feel about the present. But, of course, I would do everything to make her happy. Everything.

So, if she wants me to “forget” about all that stuff, I’ll pretend to. If she wants to go there with her, of course I will. If she wants me to be happy about it, I’ll be.