"Holiday Greetings"
For weeks we’ve been talking about my goodbye - and now, I’m actually apart from her for four days now!! - Hard to believe, that I’ve got no opportunity to see her whenever I want to!! That I can’t just call her all the time just in order to hear her voice…!

Although I hated to have to go, my goodbye was as lovely as it could be…- just because of her of course!! - Although I never said it, to no one, I always wanted her to be the airport… - and actually she really was there! Whatever, it was a surprise, coz she visited me in the afternoon to say goodbye, and also left after just a short time, coz she was still not feeling quite good and she told me that she’s really feeling sorry that she can’t come with me to the airport…! I was quite disappointed in some way - not because she wouldn’t go there, but because of the way she said goodbye, because it was so … short, she just hugged me and wished me all the best… and than she actually went home…! Whatever, all of that doesn’t matter, coz now I now, that she wanted it to be surprise when she’s suddenly next to me at the airport - and it actually was a surprise! I was so glad to see her again … but the situation turned even worse, because it was so hard to see her while I had to go trough the check-in…!!

I miss her so much! And I’m really just looking forward to her visit! Nothing else matters to me!!

Honestly, I think about her all the time, and every time when I’ve got a look on my watch I suggest what she doing right now…! I really miss her endlessly, and to know that I just can’t see her during the next weeks really makes me crazy…! I don’t know how long I’ll stand that…! I don’t know how long it’ll be enough for me just to write her two or three messages everyday, without any closer contact…!! I hate it, that I can’t call her more often, just because of the damn difference of time…!