Why?
I wish I could cry about you.
I wish I could, but I can not.
I wish I could feel the way I feel.

But I can not. Instead I am sitting here and feeling like somebody ran over me and didn't note the number down. I wish that I could understand myself, but I can not. You were dishones to me, but I want to forgive. I wnat to be with you. I wonder why you are the way you are? Why are you saying this to me and then turn around and do another. I disrespect you. I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I want to spit in your face! I want to beat you up! I want to kick you! I hate you! I hate you! I never want to feel you again! It is over! But it hurts! It hurts so bad. It hurts like somebody is cutting of my arm while I am awake. It feels like I am feeling dishonored. I am loosing a part of me. Why do give me hope and than waste than throw me away? What did I do? What did I do? Why do I deserve this? Why do you do me and throw me away? Why do I care? It was just one night! Nothing serious! I hate it! I don't want this to be it! I want it to continue. It is over! I put myself out ther so much, I lost myself so much for you and still. I refound myself. I love the way you look at me and the way you laugh and cry. I love the way you start rationalizing, I love the way you through me. I want you! My whole body is craving you. Everything you do is my thought, in my breath. I want to touch you again and again and again....I want to feel you again. I want to sleep with you again, again and again again and again. Why are you doing this to me. Why do you even bother to hurt me? Should I stay in memory? Should I keep you locked in my mind? What is this? If it was one night than okay. But why are you doing this to me? Why do I keep falling in love with you? Do I even fall in love with you? Why can I not out of it? Why? Why? Why? Why do you not love me? why? Why? Why? Why? Why do now hurt me? Why?